I have been a supporter of the Canadian Breast Cancer Foundation for three years since my aunt passed away from breast cancer in 2006. I watched her fight for her life. It was devastating to watch and harder to come to terms with. I didn’t want other women or my family members to have to live with breast cancer. I want a cure and if I can help in a small way, I will, from fundraising to awareness!
In August, I found a lump in my left breast. I made an appointment with my family doctor which quickly turned into an appt for a mammogram followed by the specialist. The findings were good but not good! The lump has not grown but looked suspicious. I had the biopsy and waited ten long days for the results. The news came back that the lump was not cancer! It was a huge relief to me and my family.
The surgery was booked for October 16th. Regardless, the lump is coming out. The day came and went and the lump is gone, but not the emotional lump that I feel in my body. I should be happy but yet I feel sad. I should be jumping for joy but all I want to do is curl up in bed. I thought the good news would bring life back into me, but I feel the opposite. Maybe it was the fear I had about the whole situation and reality is now hitting me. How does someone work through the “happy news” knowing I will be okay but other women will not be?
I ran in the Canadian Breast Cancer Foundation CIBC Run For the Cure on October 4th with my boyfriend who has been a great support for me. I wanted to be there with other supporters and survivors but it was difficult because I was still waiting for the results. It has been emotional roller coaster and very exhausting to deal with all the possibilities of those results.
Thank you,
Anita Bergsma
Isn’t it awful sometimes that we feel we can’t get the lesson without being hit over the head with an iron skillet. I had to go the skillet route…
I had a lump in ’98 that was ‘just a cyst’. Nobody told me I should have it out, kudos to you for knowing to. Well, by ’03 it was cancer. My kids were only 11 & 7. Oh the rollercoaster of diagnosis, the waiting, prognosis, treatment and it’s inherent sickness…the uncertainty of it all as you well know from what your aunt endured then your own scare. I’ve lost many friends to cancer, accidents, old age…it’s the rollercoaster of life. We only get one kick at the can. In time you’ll metabolize your good news even though people are being diagnosed as I write this. I’m happy to report my kids are now 17 & 13 and the whole ordeal is 6 years in my rearview. Life is such a blessing. To be here to just experience it all (believe it or not, good and bad). Live the life your aunt was fighting for so hard to live herself. Do it for her, for you, but be kind with yourself and let your heart recover from your scare. Who knows what the world has in store for you. Get ready, it’s all coming to you as it should…and isn’t it just amazing to simply be here to receive.
Abundance,
Laura Jennekens
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